What to DoA later time, some clearer thoughts

A later time, some clearer thoughts
And even an apology
I know you may not want these words
Still doubting that if I should give

I know that it is peace you wish
Even though it is to flee
And I let you, the fool I am
Difficult though it is to live

To know that you do flee from me
As if you fear to hold me dear
To let me look inside your self
And let you look back into me