Chapter 4A Little Trickle

I couldn't just bite the boy standing right in front of me. I didn't even know how! I was so confused. I could feel the thirst getting stronger every passing moment and it made a part of me, a growing part, want to rip his throat open with my teeth and suck on the spouts of blood that would co... NO! Focus! Focus!

Khuna gave him a kiss on the lips. Ew! I never touched a boy, held hands with one, let alone kiss one. I wondered why she did it. Was it part of the ritual? Was it part of drinking? I didn't see her bite or anything, just kiss him. I kind of stood there, unsure if I should feel fear, awe, amazement, repulsion, or...

She broke the kiss with him and asked him to wait for a moment. He just looked at her with a confused look and nodded. She stepped towards me, closer than before. Her lips right next to my ears where my new senses felt the vibrations of speech, both in her words and the air she breathed out.

"You don't have to kiss him, it just makes them, boys, more complacent. If you bite his neck carefully, he won't feel pain, he'll even kind of enjoy it. Bite softly, let your teeth just pierce the skin. Suck on the blood gently, as if you're sucking on one of your own wounds. Let it come naturally, I will kiss him again to distract him. You won't kill him."

I looked at her, directly into her eyes when she leaned back again. I didn't know what it was, but I felt I could trust her. Felt that it was really true what she said. She didn't look like a killer and we were in an public space. Cars, people. They could all just wander by. Even though it wasn't very busy.

Khuna. I didn't even know her yet. But... I thought I could trust her. She did not hurt me and only told me what I wanted to know for that moment. It seemed - almost - as if she had gone through this herself as well. I guess she must have. I mean, she also was... eh..

Blood. Focus. I nodded to her, letting her know I understood. I think the thirst had a pretty strong hold of me, for my normal fears of boys played no part in what I did next.

Khuna turned around, she looked again at the boy and I think she smiled... At least he smiled back at her. She again moved forward and kissed him on the lips. I knew what I had to do. Walking around until I stood behind him, I first gave a sort of kiss on his neck. It was all pure instinct. Every part of me was going "Ew! Ew! Ew!" except the thirst. It urged me onwards. Again giving me visions of sharp teeth piercing the skin, ripp- No! Keep focus.

I rallied and softly bit his neck. No blood came. I bit again, slightly harder this time and automatically used my corner teeth more. I felt them pierce the skin, felt it part around my teeth. I felt how his heartbeat was thumping all around my ears now. I didn't even notice it before. The blood came.

With each heartbeat the blood came. It was...

It tasted sweeter and felt more intense than anything I had ever experienced. It was like explosions of light warm water running through my body. Each heartbeat of him filling me with it. A glow of sunlight that flowed from my mouth to my fingertips, my feet and... I didn't want to think about it. My whole body was filled with it. I felt the warmth, the heat!

More heartbeats, more blood. I drank, I gulped. It couldn't have been more than a light flow, but it washed all over me. I didn't care my lips were on a boy's neck. I didn't care I was out on the street. This feeling was the most lovely feeling I'd ever had and I never wanted it to stop.

Khuna pushed me away with her head, the euphoria still inside of me before I noticed. She did something I couldn't quite see. But, as her lips moved away, the two little punctures on his neck faded. I could see them fade. Slowly without dropping a single drop of blood, it seemed.

I could see as vividly as if I had just woken up. My body was both in bliss from the blood flowing and in agony from ceasing taking it. A conflict in my head that drove me almost crazy. I hardly even noticed that my arms were quickly going from partly healed to fully healed again, my skin as soft as it'd ever been. Khuna must have gone inside, because when I tried to look for her, she and the boy weren't there.

I just stood there. Like a child wondering about all she is feeling. All she is seeing and hearing. The whole world new.

But I was angry! I wanted more! I wanted more of that feeling! More Blood! MORE!

Khuna came back outside again, alone. I didn't know what she had done to the boy but somehow I knew he was still alive. That felt strange to me. I knew he was alive, yet I wanted to feast on him still. The visions getting all mixed up. Bathing in blood, standing serene on a mountaintop, flying though the clouds.

I was angry, I was happy, I was euphoric.

I didn't know who or what I was anymore.

"Amy.", she said, as she stepped closer. "Amy!"

I nodded, barely managing to focus on her.

"It will always be intense, but probably not as much as now. You have to stop at the peak, or else you might take a life. And you will kill him and drain everything he is with the last drops of his blood."

I nodded again and this time managed to regain some of my composure. "I.." I tried again. "I want more." It felt hard to speak. I felt ashamed and my whole body must have shown it, flushing a scarlet red.

"Not tonight. You should go easy. Get to know the Thirst before you quench it."

I guess it did make some sense. The whole sky still seemed to be turning around me, and the ground waving, moving. My body was having a hard time focusing but already I started to feel it fade into the background. The blood was flowing strongly through my veins, my heart beating deeply and slowly. It hardly made any noise. But at least I felt its comforting beat.

Through all my confusion I was glad.